Me either.

Never thought you’d step out of your marriage?  Me either.

Never thought your spouse would stop loving you first?  Me either.

Never thought you’d sleep alone for many nights after the I do?  Me either.

Never thought you’d cry yourself to sleep night after night wanting your spouse to wake up?  Me either.

Never thought you’d debate a craigslist add to ‘just talk’ to someone in the same boat?  Me either.

Never thought you’d look forward to the work week to get to talk to this same boat person?  Me either.

Never thought you’d start forgetting how badly your spouse has been treating you?  Me either.

Never thought after six months of talking you’d agree to meet this same boat person?  Me either.

Never though that you would start to have feelings for a married person?  Me either.

Never thought that you’d feel like a teenager in love again?  Me either.

Never thought that you would know someone better than your own spouse?  Me either.

Never thought that someone could care for you more than your own spouse? Me either.

Never thought that the “L word” would come out with this person because you were both married? Me either.

Never thought that this person would fill ALL your thoughts All day long? Me either.

Never thought that becoming friends with his family was a bad idea to be able to see him more?  Me either.

Never thought that being friends with his spouse would get complicated? Friendship VS Love?  Me either.

Never thought that your best sexual experience EVER would be with a person who wasn’t really available to ‘be yours’?  Me either.

Never thought that you would fall in love head over heals for a person that was married?  Me either.

Never thought that you would have a nearly two year affair? Me either.

Never thought you’d get ‘caught’ in your affair? YEAH!!! ME EITHER!

Never thought that your heart would break when your affair came to an end? Me either.

Never thought you’d cry yourself to sleep over another person OTHER than your spouse?  Me either.

Never thought that your emotions would change day by day on how you are feeling about letting them go?  Me either.

Never thought that you would have feelings that they will just pick up the phone and call regardless of the situation now?  Me either.

Never thought that you would blog about your heartbreak? Me either.

Never thought you would heal….  I’m not sure I will.  I will love him always.  I can’t regret something that made me the happiest I have ever been.  I can’t just get over someone who loved me more than I have ever been loved.  Who cared for me more than anyone has ever cared for me.  I loved that we took every step so slow.  Nothing was rushed, especially the ‘bedroom stuff’  we just talked for MONTHS.  He gained so much of my respect because of that.  I love him.  I always will.  Some days are harder than others.

Never thought that you would see this person in anything and everything you see and do?  Me either.   But I love it.  It is such an awesome reminder of such an amazing time.

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