I don’t think I was addicted to him I just think I truly loved him.
But either way both my husband and I are healing. And it is hard work on both sides. We are trying to not let the other down, and I am really struggling today. Today is nothing other than an end to a very emotional weekend of my aunt’s funeral and family being in.
I miss the way my head felt buried in HIS chest as his arms were wrapped around me making me feel better. Why don’t I get that same feeling of relief when my husband hugs me?!? I just feel angry at my husband today. Angry that he can’t comfort me when I am hurting and emotional. And instantly my thoughts run to HIM. Fuck this is hard.
I wish I could forget.