I’ve been so strong. I didn’t fall to HIM begging me to talk to him. Until I was at a low. Now what… start the stupid process over? No, and it’s pretty easy this time being that HIS response to my text was, (and this is what I love about HIM).
“I know you. I know you are mad and hurt right now. I know you don’t mean the text you just said to me, it just seems like what you want. I’m here for you but only if you text me again.”
and I didn’t. I don’t want to open up another can of worms, it isn’t fair to anyone. Myself, HIM or his wife.
This is what I am telling you guys. HE knows me inside and out. He knows what is really in my heart. I don’t want my husband because he keeps shitting on me…. but I don’t want HIM either, because he isn’t all mine. I’m not settling for any less ever again. I think the path I am on is sadly one of divorce and fully getting over my marriage before I am even focusing on moving on. Thats that.
How do I help my husband? I feel like I have tried everything. I am sick of trying. Frankly I am exhausted from getting my hopes up.