I hope you are all doing well, I miss you all. My life is insane. Spring always is for me because all my (many) kids play sports. Every night and every weekend are games and practices and I’m exhausted. I don’t want you all thinking I fell of the planet lol! Things are no different. I talk to HIM by email, missing hugely what we had, and my husband is doing awesome and staying clean. I’m torn, (like always). I choose my husband and he falls because he thinks all is good again, or I choose HIM and I have to deal with the consequences of that. Which trust there are plenty… I’m just taking it day by day. Life is so unfair sometimes. I’m just at a place where I’m enjoying talking to him and enjoying the fact that my husband is staying clean on his own, I had sooo much fear for so long that he would wind up in a ditch. So I guess life is good right now. I just took a huge step back and made my main focus my children.