I’m in bed. Thinking of you. missing you. I’ve had two glasses of wine which makes me far from drunk but relaxed enough to know what I want and long for. I want you. I want to fall asleep each night next to you and wake up each morning in the same place. I want to fall asleep to your breathing and wake up to your kisses or kissing you. I don’t know how I’ve gone this long without you. I’ve never wanted anything more. I’d change everything if I knew no one would get hurt. I just can’t bring myself to hurt others for my selfish reasons. I love you. More than I’ve ever loved. But not enough to uproot your/my children. I truly think if it was just our spouses, I’d fight for you. I’m not settling. I’m just letting the kids have their happy ever afters instead of me. I love you. So much it hurts sometimes,. Nights like this when he’s sleeping and I did all the work for dinner, homework, and bedtime. Nights like this when I’m incredibly lonely. Nights like this when I miss seeing the moon with you next to me. Nights like this when I could deal with this because I was seeing you soon. Nights like this when I didn’t care that he went to bed at 7:30 because I had you. Nights like this that I didn’t mind him forgetting to tell me he loved me because I knew you did. I hope you are having a good evening and that you are getting a chance to relax. Goodnight. Oh how I wonder how you’ve been and what you are doing.