Tonight I’m in the bathtub as I blog. Wacko I must be. But I do a lot of thinking in here. The kids are in bed. Dogs in their crates. Dishes are done. Laundry was folded. I tried to read my book, but can’t seem to take in what I read. My head isn’t in it. I ordered in Chinese. I twirled my noodles around on my plate with my chop sticks listening to my kids laugh. They’re my world. My poor 11 year old. She’s making my heart worry. Tween years are so hard. They’re not little like kids but they’re not big like teens. She’s so mature for her age. She’s a state lacrosse player. She’s really good. I’m not just saying that because I’m her mom. She has straight A’s in school. She’s a tomboy for sure and it’s making life hard for her right now. She doesn’t fit in with the girls because she’s not like them. But the boys want noting to do with a girl. She’s kind of by herself right now and it makes me really sad. The principal says the boys get upset in gym because she plays nearly all the sports better than they do. This was told to me when I went in to talk to him because the top boy athlete asked her why she’s so good at sports and asked her if she was a lesbian IN FRONT OF SOME OF THE BOYS!! Now, I have nothing against anyone who’s gay. Nothing. I support gay marriage completely. If you’re a male, in love with a male that’s great. If you’re a female and adore with all your heart your female partner awesome. You have my support. But to ask that question to a girl who struggles daily with who she is and how she should fit in is wrong at 11. To make matters more confusing my mother in law IS gay. So my daughter asked me after this incident if that was genetic. My poor daughter. Now. I work with kids everyday. I have all kinds of education on child development and kids in general. Was it bullying? Maybe a little but the principal says he watches my daughter get plays abs touch downs and baskets and home runs when they can’t. I realize that’s hard for a boy to constantly be outdone by a ‘girl’ but come on!!! My heart just hurts for her. We’ve talked a lot about great female athletes and female role models and how her sexuality is not something to decide now. Lacrosse starts back up in a month and I can’t wait. She’ll be around other girls her age that like sports and are as good and better than she is. Get her mind of the kids at school. Ugh. My husband has been in bed for hours. His galblader is bothering him. Or so he says. It’s always something.
My bath water is cold. More on this later.