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Tonight I’m in the bathtub as I blog. Wacko I must be. But I do a lot of thinking in here. The kids are in bed. Dogs in their crates. Dishes are done. Laundry was folded. I tried to read my book, but can’t seem to take in what I read. My head isn’t in it. I ordered in Chinese. I twirled my noodles around on my plate with my chop sticks listening to my kids laugh. They’re my world. My poor 11 year old. She’s making my heart worry. Tween years are so hard. They’re not little like kids but they’re not big like teens. She’s so mature for her age. She’s a state lacrosse player. She’s really good. I’m not just saying that because I’m her mom. She has straight A’s in school. She’s a tomboy for sure and it’s making life hard for her right now. She doesn’t fit in with the girls because she’s not like them. But the boys want noting to do with a girl. She’s kind of by herself right now and it makes me really sad. The principal says the boys get upset in gym because she plays nearly all the sports better than they do. This was told to me when I went in to talk to him because the top boy athlete asked her why she’s so good at sports and asked her if she was a lesbian IN FRONT OF SOME OF THE BOYS!! Now, I have nothing against anyone who’s gay. Nothing. I support gay marriage completely. If you’re a male, in love with a male that’s great. If you’re a female and adore with all your heart your female partner awesome. You have my support. But to ask that question to a girl who struggles daily with who she is and how she should fit in is wrong at 11. To make matters more confusing my mother in law IS gay. So my daughter asked me after this incident if that was genetic. My poor daughter. Now. I work with kids everyday. I have all kinds of education on child development and kids in general. Was it bullying? Maybe a little but the principal says he watches my daughter get plays abs touch downs and baskets and home runs when they can’t. I realize that’s hard for a boy to constantly be outdone by a ‘girl’ but come on!!! My heart just hurts for her. We’ve talked a lot about great female athletes and female role models and how her sexuality is not something to decide now. Lacrosse starts back up in a month and I can’t wait. She’ll be around other girls her age that like sports and are as good and better than she is. Get her mind of the kids at school. Ugh. My husband has been in bed for hours. His galblader is bothering him. Or so he says. It’s always something.
My bath water is cold. More on this later.
Step by step, day by day. Kids, sports, school, work, cleaning, car repairs, TAXES (STUPID IRS LOL), marriage and the rest of life. Last night I slept on the couch I was so angry with my husband. Well thats not totally fair. I’m LIVID with my mother in law. I thought men were supposed to have mother in laws from hell. Not wives.
My parents took on my step daughter as their own grandchild when I married my husband. She was the moment we got married a part of this family. My parents would never ‘not include her’ because she isn’t REALLY their grandchild. She became their grandchild when we got married. Right? One would think.
My husbands mother informed me a couple months ago that she is giving the grandkids, (there are three of them) graduation gifts of a trip to Hawaii. I thought how exciting for my husbands daughter, my son and my sister in laws son! Awesome. OH no! I was quickly put into place that my son from my first husband isn’t her grandchild and my son would not be going. I was hurt. Livid. Pissed. You name it. I decided to blow it off. Whatever. I went through a phase of being pissed at my husband for not calling his mom out on his shitty-ness. He just said “well he really isn’t their grandchild”. Fine whatever. I let it go. However, I can’t seem to get angry without acting like a child so I decided I wouldn’t invite them to his graduation. He isn’t their grandchild. I know, two wrongs don’t make a right but I was hurt. My son and my husbands daughter go to different high schools. Well fast forward two months… to now. My step daughter has dropped out of school, moved in with her boyfriend, written everyone off and basically gives us the big fuck you when anyone tries to talk to her. So last night was a normal night. Dinner, homework with all the kids, mellow, NORMAL. When the phone rings. It is my mother in law. She has decided that because they already bought the ticket they are still going to take my step daughter to Hawaii. Blood shot to my head. My step daughter has done nothing but lie, steal, cheat, manipulate, drop out of school, get knocked up you name it and we are going to go and reward her anyway?!?!? NOT TO MENTION here is my son who COULD use the ticket (which isn’t why I’m mad don’t misunderstand) who is graduating on time getting good grades and then going off to the Navy. Instantly I start sobbing. How can two people that call themselves family be so hateful and unkind. When I said I would like them to not take her for many reasons, one being a huge slap in the face of my nephew and son who DID graduate and do what they were supposed to do. Second, what is she going to learn from that? You can do everything in life that is frowned upon in life and still get rewarded? Should kids not be accountable for their choices and actions? At this point I wasn’t even mad at my husband until his next words. I said, “My parents would never not include your daughter in something!” His reply, “Your parents couldn’t afford to do something like this for our kids anyway.” First of all that isn’t the fucking point. Second of all my parents have money but they aren’t rolling in it like your parents from lawsuits and being sue happy assholes. So I’m mad at everyone. My husband then says I think you just need to go to bed. I think your pregnancy hormones are getting the best of you. Sigh. Needless to say I hate everyone. Maybe I’ll pack up MY kids and go to Hawaii.
Am I over reacting? And yes. I’m pregnant. I just found out.
Peeing in the Afterlife.
I had to reblog this! LOL cracked me up. I love kids and I love this guy! HAHAHAHA. Only a child would ask if a ghost has a penis. The things as parents that we talk about LOL.